That feeling? who Myrtle of PBB felt about Yves? " ganun din siguro ang naramdaman ko nu'n (charr! drama sa'g kadyut) " one thing that makes it harder for me is that I still am not in a state of 100% recovery about the issue before.. That I was too dumb! too hippocrate to believe that he might be the prince charming of my life. Well, 'twas then my mistake really... She was right I think. I was such a flirt for what I did and I was too assuming that it was true.... mygod! If ever I'd be ask of what's the biggest mistake I've done in my life maybe my answer could've been those days... I was just too "TANGA!" and too "DULL/BOBO" and "WEAK" that I never think of what's gonna happen after those things I did...
Well I think it's also a Karma for me as in the bad karma due to my worst attitude." I was too bad, 'kala mo naman kung sino maka-asta! 'kala mo kung sinong mayaman, 'kala mo kung sinong matalino! Nagmamagaling lang naman!..tsk.." and it's so sad to really know and realize it myself too late.. Another Bad thing there is that until now, hindi pa rin nagbago ang ugaling 'yun! :( I don't know, it'ss just that "muandar lang jud akong pagkahambogera!, feeling dato!, feeling bryt!, feeling taas kaayo ko! " then at the end of the day, " saka ko pa narerealize na mali na pala ang mga ginawa ko" I'm really sorry Lord! ... I just don't really know how am I gonna stop this bad kind of inner ugliness in me. "Ang sama ko lang talaga... napaka-malditah... walah namang binatbat dahil ang totoo, napakahina naman :'( " I know I always want to be good but I just had that naturality inside that I just can't take it away from me... Well, I can say na " medyo, nabawas-bawasan na 'yung attitude na 'yun when I entered college. Pero, kahit anong gawin ko... andun parin 'yung kasamaan nang ugali..lumalabas pa rin...tamah nga yata talaga siguro sila, ang isang tao, kung 'yun siya, 'yun na talaga siya at mahirap na 'yung baguhin o tanggalin sa kanya :'( " Sorry father God.... "parati nalang akong nagsosorry...puro nalang din sorry ang sinasabi ko whenever may kasalanan ako pero sa sumusunod na mga araw naman bumabalik parin sa dati :( .. pasensya na po talaga..." :(((
